Well, it’s time for “one of those” posts…..and there maybe a few of these over the next few weeks as this is a little bit of an emotional time.<\/p>\n

For those that have followed me\/us on Caringbridge over the years know that I get extremely emotional \u00a0whenever we take on a new family. \u00a0The timing of our events intensifies the emotions as Sunfest planning and full on “go time” hit right around Harrison’s death day and now all things Hope Fest are happening around Harrison’s birthday. \u00a0I often feel like these days would probably come and go and I may not think too much about them if it were not for the connections I was making with families and the constant promoting of theses events for Hope From Harrison, but given the timing it is just how it goes.<\/p>\n

Needless to say it has been an emotional few weeks. \u00a0I have connected with our new families and started to get to know them. \u00a0Katie and Kyle\u00a0and Kaden\u00a0are forever in my heart and soul now. \u00a0Jillian, Tadd, Lincoln and angel baby Paxton are also forever embedded in my being. \u00a0We’ve been brought together under the worst circumstances, but now we are Hope From Harrison family and that means forever. \u00a0I wake up each day and think about them, I send strength to them, I worry about them, I am hopeful for them. \u00a0I do the same thing for the Orozco’s, The Snow’s, The Dodson’s, Gin and Bren, and Josiah and his family. \u00a0It was a think about everyday for them and for us. \u00a0 I think about all our struggles, our triumphs, our joys and our sorrows. \u00a0It is a lot to carry around, but is who I am and it is how it is.<\/p>\n

As we work tirelessly on Hope Fest in hopes of creating a HUGE success for Kaden and Lincoln and for Hope From Harrison, I carry a lot of extra emotional weight. \u00a0I have two more families in my heart. \u00a0I also have the bittersweet burden of Harrison’s birthday approaching. \u00a0November 1, in a perfect world, Harrison would be 4. \u00a0FOUR! \u00a0And as I was working away on things a few minutes ago on the website for Hope Fest I decided to take a peak at the video called “Harrison’s journey.” \u00a0It is extremely difficult for me to watch, in fact I hadn’t watched it since his funeral (aka “Celebration”) until Harper came home from the hospital. \u00a0Tonight I watched about a minute and turned it off. \u00a0As I watched and cried and felt my broken heart ache throughout my entire body I realized he died at 5 months and 3 days. \u00a0Tomorrow my Harper turns \u00a05 months and 3 days.<\/p>\n